Is it just me, or has the collective energy been feeling kinda heavy lately?
I thought after the American election was over, the world would be able to finally exhale a breath of relief and begin the process of moving forward. However, as much as I’m happy that Trump was not re-elected, I’m also not thrilled about Biden becoming the next president. I’m over the moon about Kamala Harris making history as the first Black woman to become VP, but still super skeptical of what’s in store for the world. I’d like to believe in the goodness of people, but I’m aware there’s a dark side to everything we’ve been taught, too.
All of these feelings are valid. And yes, they’re all wildly confusing.
Over the last few years, I’ve trained my mind to see the positives in everything, to appreciate the moments for what they are, and to turn sadness and mistakes into lessons. I’m grateful for the way I think because I understand others do not operate this way, although I do not discredit myself in getting here. It’s been hard.
That said, sometimes it’s hard for me to register when I am repressing feelings. Being an empath and watching the current state of the world unfold can be draining. I try to be so on top of my mental health that I ignore the signs of exhaustion from my physical body.
Unless you are a Buddhist monk and you are living in a monastery without social media or a television, I’m sure you’re stressed out on some level. And in case you didn’t know, holding onto stress and tension in the body can manifest itself into other issues such as acne, headaches, heart palpitations, and stomach aches, to name a few.
Sometimes it’s healthy to just… release.
Everybody’s been talking about Netflix’s If Anything Happens I Love You on TikTok, saying they can’t get through the 12 minute film without bawling their eyes out.
The animated short film is about two parents grieving over the loss of their child in a school shooting. Written by Michael Govier and Will McCormack, it shows what a life of loss entails and is a must-watch given its larger meaning.
The child’s shadow self, representing her eternal spirit, seems to slip through dimensions and time, to past, present, and future self. The spirit of the child revisits its favourite memories, watches as her parents fall apart, and mends them together in healing. The future spirits of her parents join her as they are able to visit all realms, too.
It was oddly comforting knowing that one day their souls could be reunited. I found myself wondering, is this what really happens after we die? We already know as humans that we are nothing but energy, and energy cannot be created or destroyed. Where do we go?
Safe to say I was bawling five minutes in. If Anything Happens I Love You was one of the quickest and most genuine cries I’ve had in a long time, and I felt so much better after watching. Lighter, even.
I must remind myself that it’s okay to cry even when you don’t feel like you have a reason to. Crying is one of the most natural things a human can do, and best of all… it’s totally healthy.
If 2020 has taught me anything, it’s that life is so short and you’d better tell the people you love that you love them. The film helps to reassure that everything is going to be okay in the end, and if it’s not okay… it’s not the end.
So give it a watch, let out some of your emotional turmoil, take a deep breath, and continue on. Your soul will thank you.